Monday, April 28, 2014

Welp

Well, I've missed a bunch of weeks of stories, and I want to say I've been taking time off for my bday, crummy personal stuff, and being sick but honestly, it's the inevitable writers block. It's like a creative funk, but with words. I've had it many times, and I'm used to this cycle. I just have to take a break and ride it out. Try new creative outlets, reflect on stuff, blah blah blah. So. I started a Tumblr account, for starters. Gotta get away from my brain to find my way back to my mind, ya know? It happens, and I'm just bummed to be missing some posts and letting anyone reading this down. Well just a little, it is my blog after all. My space to do my thang without judgement. Know what I'm sayin? Exactly.

With that being said, I have been thinking a lot about the short story fragments rolling around in my brain, and I've been trying to outline a few. So be on the lookout for those lil gems! In the meantime, I'm going to keep taking some photos of my cat for my very unimportant new Tumblr blog. If you have some minutes to waste, check it: 


It's almost embarrassing to admit that I started a blog for my cat. Almost. 

Have a good Monday!

-HM

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Story // 11 Library (story + memory)

I remember as a kid I used to spend my summer days at the library. The minute I walked inside, the cool air brought a sense of calm to my sweaty face and frazzled hair. It was relaxing to be inside a building with so many worlds housed together. What adventure will I go on today? Who will I meet? What city will I visit?

The sci-fi section was always a good choice. Depending on which series I started with, I could travel at speeds that scientists could only dream of. I've seen planets with blue vegetation covering everything, run by little red fireflies. There were an infinite amount of adventures to go on when you traveled intergalactically. But watch out, enemies were around every corner. And oxygen was never abundant enough. Especially when you were stranded on a lava planet.

Sometimes I would feel like solving a mystery or two with my girl, Nancy. She always had a thing for detective work, and still kept up a trendy wardrobe at the same time. She was amazing, and I wanted to go on every mission with her. Sometimes we would have to deal with ghosts, which was my favorite part. Those sneaky spirits were always out to get us, but Nancy knew what to do every time. 

For some reason the stories about the struggle for equality always drew me in right away. Like quicksand I would sink into the plot, never budging from my wooden chair in the reading space. I wanted to know about how other people kept their faith, how in the mist of tragedy they clung to hope. Or how they abandoned it altogether, only to discover it was there with them all along. It terrified me how awful some people were to others, and how the justice system didn't always deliver a fair ruling. Tears would sting in my eyes as I tried to hold down a fast forming lump in my throat. Then I would look up to make sure no one saw just how upset I was getting. 

I remember all the friends I made in each story, all the adventures they took me on. The good news and the bad. The battles we fought. The opinions we influenced. The incredible power of a book will stay with me forever. 

I think this summer I'll wander through the Wild West section. Or maybe take a trip around the world on a pirate ship...I'll let you know if I find any treasure maps. 

Friday, March 14, 2014

Whoops & Story // 10 Catching Waves (poem)

Sorry for not posting this past Wednesday, I was busy with a new beauty blog I just started with my bestie. I did a video so that took longer than I anticipated with editing. Even though I edit pretty fast, it still took me a couple of hours from start to finish. But it was pretty cool feeling like I was back in film school, working on a class project. Geez I miss that! Late nights in the editing room, lining a script for the next day's shoot, organizing the shot list...

Anyway, if you like makeup/hair/beauty in general, check us out HERE. We are just getting started and it's the best thing ever to have a blog with your best friend. I would highly recommend starting one! I can't wait to see this one grow with our changing beauty inspirations, and to be able to look back at the archives and get a laugh out of our dorkiness. Chloe is the most fun to work with, and her tips are what I love to read about. I tried her hair tutorial today actually, see it HERE.

On another note, I have a weird addiction to writing poetry, especially haikus, so I thought I would write one this week. It's about surfing, which I sorely miss ever since my board got a massive ding in it right after moving. I'm so bummed, my poor little blue board, laying all sad and lonely along my patio wall. Hence my sad little poem. Just a heads up before you read this or any future poetry of mine, I only write sarcastic/ironic poems, so just remember to not take any of it seriously. The more ridiculous the better in my opinion! 

Story // 10 Sylvia Plath as a dramatic surfboard

Day 45

The sun beats down,
Can't help but frown,
My life is done forever.

Call me dramatic,
but my last aquatic,
outing might of been my last endeavor.

What will she do with me?
How can she not see,
that I am as lonely as a stray.

Life out of water,
is so much hotter,
it's literally melting me away.

Oh what I would be,
when back in the sea,
the envy of all who have surfed.

But for now I'm beached,
and have almost reached,
my last bit of hope has dispersed.

This gigantic hole in my side,
this enemy that I bide,
the time away with is no happy thing.

So here's to my once happy life,
I now live in strife,
Curse this retched ding!


THE END! Thanks for reading! :)




Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Story // 09 Being a Female Breadwinner (Essay)

This isn't necessarily a story, it's more of an essay. I wanted to write about this after reading an article this morning about women in power who are seen but still invisible (link HERE). But then again, as long as I'm writing something once a week, then it counts in my book. This is a little bit of my opinion on being a female breadwinner, and being a female who is invisible in the spotlight.
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It seems that there are never enough hours in one day to get everything done, but that's not saying I don't get a good chunk of my todo list checked off. That said, it doesn't really matter what I accomplish in the grand scheme of things, since I will never be looked at as equal to a male counterpart. I can make enough money to retire tomorrow, yet there will still be someone out there saying I could of done more, made more, or been a better role model to women. I've found that in the past few years of marriage that a female breadwinner in the family isn't praised, and that I need to constantly prove to others that I am just as capable as a man to do my job, balance my personal finances, and that I in fact don't think with my emotions for every decision I make. I'm used to it, but I'd be lying if I said I don't get jealous of the freedom men have sometimes.

Ever since I got married my family has been wondering what's wrong with my husband, since he is unemployed. Like he has some type of disease, they think we are constantly struggling with one income. The reality? We are doing fine. It's not like I'm raking in the dough, but I'm making enough to pay for my family to live in a condo in an expensive town and eat healthy foods every day. That, my friends, is an accomplishment. Ya I don't have much in my savings, but thats primarily due to my wedding two years ago that I had to partially finance. Weddings are expensive, and I'm still working through the bills. But it was an amazing night, so definitely worth a little debt. I don't get that feeling of pride from most of my family members about my job status, instead I just get worried calls and frustrating emails asking me about updates on my husband's status. This isn't saying that everyone in my family is like this, but more than a few have been disappointed with me about this fact. Like I can control the job market. Like my husband is purposely not working. Like I am not enough of a person to be the breadwinner. Yep that's me!

My friends have been mostly positive about our financial situation, maybe because I talk to them about everything so they know me the best. When my husband and I go out with new friends, we always get the question: "so, what do you do for a living?" It's really made me think hard about how much American's define themselves by their careers. As much as I love working, I don't want to be defined by my job. That's the last thing I want someone to think about when they think of me. It's weird, and usually we say some baloney answer to fill in the gap, but I just don't like that question. Maybe I'll make something up next time I'm asked. Astronaut sounds plausible.

I for one really appreciate a non-traditional household. I don't believe in typical gender roles, and I think that men sometimes vacuum better than women. I get asked a lot about how I have time to run home and make meals after working so much, and when I say I don't cook what's their answer? Usually always: "oh, you'll learn eventually when you stay at home with the kids". Ummm excuse me? When did I even mention children to you? But if you see commercials these days, there are only about two that show stay at home dads. So it makes sense that the public thinks this way. It's also depressing that the public can't think outside the box. We will never be able to change these stereotypes unless we can change our culture, and that will take a while. Like, my grandchildren will be the first to benefit from my changes today. And that's alright with me, if it pays off for them. If one day they can look back at this biased generation and wonder why the world was so close minded. To be able to see that evolution is progress, even if they have new issues to deal with.

I just wish one day I can stop fighting two battles at the same time: the battle to win the bread and the battle to earn the position of winning the bread. One day.


"Only when women in positions of power become the norm will they be able to fully exercise that power." -Ava Thompson Greenwell, author of article linked at top of essay.


If I offended anyone with this essay, I'm sorry. That was not my intention, I just want to share my opinion. And if you are offended ask yourself this: can you not see outside the box? Maybe your opinions are just as offensive. 



Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Story 08 // The Factory

The idea for this week's story is from a nightmare I had last week. I have a few nightmares a week, and I assume that's pretty common? Maybe? Well, anyway, here's one that stood out, hope you like it.

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Just don't look anyone in the face directly, they already hate us. We just need to survey the area and we can get out of here, said Eric.

Joe was less than willing to talk to the locals, let alone make eye contact. He knew this area only from the news, and knew it wasn't the best place to be visiting. But duty calls, and he had to get this job done before he could return back to the US.

Ok lets just get this over with, Joe muttered, quickening his pace. His beige duster whipped around in the wind like a cape. He stuck his hands in the big pockets, closing his right hand around his gun. He expertly turned the safety off and had it ready for action. Let's hope I don't need this, Joe thought, scrunching his forehead in the pale sunlight as he and Eric rounded the corner of the block.

This was a very poor town, it didn't even look like it had electricity. The streets were all made of mud, hard packed and seemed perpetually damp. The trees that did survive these hard winters were twisted and bare; not a single leaf was left on a branch. The little bit of snow that was on the ground was mushy and brown. Joe's boots would squish every time he took a step, coating them in grim and mud. The buildings were mostly make of brick, and all had at least two windows missing glass, as well as damage to the facades. They were sad and needed some rehabilitation, but the locals all went about their business without giving the buildings a single glance. Everyone wore shades of neutrals, and their clothing looked like it was from centuries ago. Children walked beside their parents, quiet and serious, like they were forever on time out. There were no cars, just bikes and small scooters. Every time Joe and Eric passed a building, the townspeople would stop talking and glare at them, watching as they passed.

Joe looked at his feet to avoid another glare, and realized his boot was untied. He was approaching a long bench and decided to stop there and tie it fast. The laces were muddy but he didn't want to risk tripping on it in the factory. As he straightened up he looked at an old man sitting at the other end of the bench, who unknown to Joe had been staring at him the whole time. Joe gave him a small smile and waved, and the old man moved his hand up as if to return the greeting, only to take his thumb across his throat in a slicing motion instead. Joe's face fell and he swallowed hard. He sped up to catch Eric.

The factory came into view finally for them, as they hustled towards the entrance. Terribly tall, it had a charred black exterior, the smoke stacks were void of any smoke. There was a group of weather worn men waiting outside, all bundled up in old factory jackets and pants. No one said hi or greeted them, but one opened the door and they all walked inside. Eric gave Joe a glance that seemed to say don't do anything stupid now. Don't worry, Joe wanted to say, these workers look like serial killers.

They twisted and turned down corridors and hallways, like they were trying to solve a maze. Finally they got to the main structure's space, which looked worse than the outside. Most of it was gutted out from an explosion, leaving partially crumbled chambers in it's absence. There was graffiti all over the place, all saying anti-American slurs and threats. The mud had pilled up in here, and the lighting was cloudy. There was a sad little tree growing out from one of the chambers that no longer had it's seal attached, the door flopped open and crooked. How the hell is that the only greenery in this place?, thought Joe.

Eric took out his glasses and started walking around the space. He had his notepad out and was already scratching down notes.

What are you doing? said the unofficial leader of the group in a thick Russian accent.

I'm just taking down notes so I can evaluate the factory and determine whether or not this can be repaired, said Eric, still looking around.

What do you mean? We must start work again, how will we afford to live? - Unofficial Leader

Well I can't tell you if that is going to be a possibility yet until I assess the damage. - Eric

Another worker suddenly broke from the group and hopped up onto a pile of rocks. F***ing Americans!!! He shouted in a similar Russian accent, so loud the place echoed the insult back and forth. All you do is push paperwork, you never work in factory! You have no idea how our town works and how we live! You have been taking advantage of us for too long. No more!!

The other workers started to cheer and picked up debris from the ground to throw at the walls. One worker picked up a pipe and charged at Eric. He looked to be about three times the size of an average man, with his jumpsuit ripping at the seams as he raised his arms.

STOP! Joe pulled his gun out and shot into the air. A flurry of dust fell from the ceiling, and the sound stung the air long after it was shot. The workers all stopped throwing things, but turned towards Joe with menacing faces.

Eric, you got what you need?, said Joe, pointing his gun at the unofficial leader.

Eric nodded and the two shuffled out of the main room. The sound of rebellion had resumed, chasing after them in the dark corridors.

How do we get out of here?, mumbled Joe, Eric close behind him.








Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Story // 7 In The Wings

He took a deep breath and let it out slowly, so as not to be heard. The spotlight spilled brightly onto the stage, casting a velvet shadow on the curtains hiding the wings. He slowly rotated his neck, trying to calm his nerves. The exit sign flickered to his right, as if to remind him of his options. He looked at his ballet slippers, covered in chalk and ready for action. 

I could just run out now, the understudy could take over my role...

No, he argued within his mind. What the hell would you tell your grandma? And your mother would never let it go, all this hard work for nothing...

He inhaled again, straightening his posture this time. 

No, screw these nerves, I know this, I can do this, this is what I live for. 

The solo was almost over, the music jingled to an end, and the stage went black. 

He grinned, feeling new confidence and a surge of adrenalin. 

Show time! Potabore...

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Story // 6 Dye Job

She woke up with a jolt.

SHIT!

She got up fast from the couch, and grabbed her head, holding the towel that was still tightly wrapped around her hair. It felt cold and slightly damp. Her stomach was in knots and her heart was racing.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BE OK!!

She slammed the bathroom door open, her cat sprung back from the sound like a cartoon. She cast off her towel in a flustered heap, and slowly turned towards the mirror.

There it was, her new hair, in all it's glory. Pink as a flamingo. She had left the dye in for hours, falling asleep by accident, and realized she hadn't really done a great job wiping up the drippings. Her forehead was smudged with pink dye, as well has her hands. Each crease and line on every finger was now outlined with hot pink. Her nails looked like stained glass. Everything, all of it was pink.

She grabbed the instructions again, double checking the words as if they could somehow fix her unfixable problem. The box was sitting calmly in the trash can, with big bold letters across the top: "LIGHTEST PALE PINK". It promised to tint blonde hair with a semi-permanent pink hue, and had a photo of a model with barely there pink colored hair. It promised it would be a quick job too, "20 minutes to cotton candy locks".

She read aloud to herself: "Leave in hair no longer than one hour, rinse out, and use the included conditioner afterwards. If hair doesn't look pink after rinse, wait four hours and use other half of dye".

Other half?? WHAT?

...

Thank you sir, she said to the waiter. He gave her a big smile while handing her the napkin.

You're very welcome miss.

She looked sheepishly at her boyfriend across the table, who was trying not to get caught looking at her hot pink hair. He held up his menu and cleared his throat,

You look great tonight honey.

She smiled, knowing he loved her with any hair color. She reached for the bread with her pink hands and giggled.